Every time I get down on myself, it is 90 percent about one thing…

Women.

It seems like every girl I want a connection with seems to fade away on their part. I play the good guy role, opening doors, buying dinner, that sort of thing. Meanwhile, i’m putting in the work, whether I am texting them, calling them, or hanging out with them. All of these scenarios throughout my life have ended the same way. They stop texting me after they find out that I’m really a nice guy and I honestly care about them and their well being. In realistic terms, I become their friend, they start catching on that I like them, then they ignore any form of advances I make, till I get frustrated and ruin our friendship.

Common Questions I ask myself:

Do I not have enough upside?

This question always starts out negative, and ends up with me saying to myself that I have the most upside, and consider myself one of the greatest people ever to live. I have a strong sense of humor, I know how to make myself laugh about it.

How am I not better than that guy?

This is a question everyone has had in their head. And honestly, I haven’t found an answer. I hate to blame my generation as a whole because everyone is different, but kids growing up nowadays don’t care about anything but getting high and themselves.. its sickening. Everyone is so wrapped up in “being an individual” but the whole problem with that is, that their parents were the individuals. Instead of getting a job or going to college (like their parents), these kids run rampant with no job, no morals, let alone what the value of a dollar is. I hate rich kids, not because they are rich, but because they don’t appreciate anything outside of name brands. The girls I tend to go for love those kind of guys.

What am I doing wrong?

This remains the problem. I know that I can be somewhat smothering with my actions, but straight up, I wouldn’t hurt a man or woman on purpose. I haven’t hit anyone outside of my brothers in ten years. But I’ve been in the same situation over and over. Seriously, I’m the only guy I know that is straight loyal like a dog, and has no girlfriend to show for it.

After it all, I end up moving on with my days, leaving old bitches in the past, hoping for better ones in the future. I’m team quality over quantity.

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